There’s a strong possibility I might just be cyclothymic — this might just be the depression talking, but I can’t even remember a time other than during the hypomanic episodes where I felt “good” — but once I get in to see my psychiatrist I’m going to talk to him about going up on the rexulti (new stuff) and tapering down on the lamictal (since I think I’m on a higher dose than I actually need to be). I get psychiatry services through my county’s social services so that might be a while, lol — he’s great but so hard to schedule an appointment with. It’s difficult when you don’t really have a “good” baseline, you know? Like, I don’t even know what’s normal for other people and what’s normal for me and if there’s a difference. But my therapist has me trying ACT (acceptance and commitment therapy) for OCD and I’m trying to apply it to my mood stuff and physical health as well.