good god get a grip girl
Feb. 12th, 2019 12:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ladymostkindthe trouble with having a mood disorder is that i can never truly tell if the emotion im experiencing is because of an external reason (or as i would describe it as "a good reason") or if its a symptom of my illness (aka "a dumb one"). even when on medication, im never sure. i remember what it was like without it - long periods of depression, bouts of irritation and anger, fast energy, fast spending, restlessness. but ive been on this medication for about a year now and whenever i find myself anger for the day or if i feel like crying, i find myself wondering if my medication isnt working anymore. even when i know there was something awful or something that sucked that day.
the most recent occurrence was the hate crime jussie smollett experienced. i was mad the whole day when i learned about it but i wasnt sure if the level of my anger was legitimate or not, since it interfered with my focus and work.
a couple of weeks ago i was diagnosed with adhd and then prescribed medication for it. because of my mood disorder, my psychiatrist expressed some concern with me taking it. people with mood disorders, specifically bipolar disorder like me, can be knocked into a manic state because of the medication. so she put me at the lowest dosage and we'll be meeting up in about a month to talk about how things have been going.
but i have quite a lot of external stresses, like work (my duties AND coworker related) and now ive enrolled myself into an online grad program in the fall. so whenever im feeling like i want to cry, like right now, i dont know whether its because of that stress or its because of the medication im taking.
psychology really is as much of an art as it is a science.
the most recent occurrence was the hate crime jussie smollett experienced. i was mad the whole day when i learned about it but i wasnt sure if the level of my anger was legitimate or not, since it interfered with my focus and work.
a couple of weeks ago i was diagnosed with adhd and then prescribed medication for it. because of my mood disorder, my psychiatrist expressed some concern with me taking it. people with mood disorders, specifically bipolar disorder like me, can be knocked into a manic state because of the medication. so she put me at the lowest dosage and we'll be meeting up in about a month to talk about how things have been going.
but i have quite a lot of external stresses, like work (my duties AND coworker related) and now ive enrolled myself into an online grad program in the fall. so whenever im feeling like i want to cry, like right now, i dont know whether its because of that stress or its because of the medication im taking.
psychology really is as much of an art as it is a science.
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