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[ladymostkind]

I'm having a breakdown like an idiot over something so trash.



i heard back from this apprenticeship opportunity with a museum as a preparator. i didn't make it to the next stage. i honestly feel like i will forever be stuck in my current position. each time i apply to a position that's outside of what i currently do, i get no traction. i hate my job, i hate where i am right now. i hate what i do but it feels like nothing i do to get out of this career works.

making a career change feels like an impossible goal to achieve and i know im probably being super dramatic about this but it genuinely feels like i will never be able to switch into the career i want. im going to be fucking stuck being a fucking grant writer for the rest of my fucking 20s at minimum. my whole 20s, a fucking grant writer, something i picked up because i figured why not. a job that i figured i'd do because it's something i would have to know how to do since i want to work in either a library or a museum. it was supposed to be a stepping stone. i wasn't supposed to be doing this FOR FOUR FUCKING YEARS WHAT THE FUCK

im so angry i could break my whole laptop. im fucking stuck, this is fucking it.

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[singedsun]

It sucks that you didn't get it. I'm sorry.

[izzet_bedtime_yet]

My first job fresh out of undergrad was in QA. My mother warned me about the potential for getting "tracked" into a career that wouldn't suit me, but the pay was good and the team was nice and I figured I could pivot.

Within two years, nobody wanted to interview me for jobs outside of QA functions.

I dunno if it's that people usually do like to stick with what they know, or that training people who already have other skills is seen as a waste, or what, but it seems like getting trapped in a job function you don't actually want to do long-term is a lot easier than the cultural sort of narrative says it is.

TL;DR I relate to this feeling and sympathise. And, if it helps any, I did manage to move to a different line of work before I quit to go back to school, by dint of finding a position where there was sideways mobility and then being very insistent that yes I wanted to do something different. Escape is possible!

[ladymostkind]

It's good to know that I'm not the only one who has experienced this but then it's disheartening to know that it's so common.

I'm enrolled in a masters program for the career path I want which starts in the fall so I hope that building my knowledge will be enough to grant me an interview since a lot of the positions I want often come down to me needing to know particular things.