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Apr. 19th, 2019 08:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ladymostkindI'm having a breakdown like an idiot over something so trash.
i heard back from this apprenticeship opportunity with a museum as a preparator. i didn't make it to the next stage. i honestly feel like i will forever be stuck in my current position. each time i apply to a position that's outside of what i currently do, i get no traction. i hate my job, i hate where i am right now. i hate what i do but it feels like nothing i do to get out of this career works.
making a career change feels like an impossible goal to achieve and i know im probably being super dramatic about this but it genuinely feels like i will never be able to switch into the career i want. im going to be fucking stuck being a fucking grant writer for the rest of my fucking 20s at minimum. my whole 20s, a fucking grant writer, something i picked up because i figured why not. a job that i figured i'd do because it's something i would have to know how to do since i want to work in either a library or a museum. it was supposed to be a stepping stone. i wasn't supposed to be doing this FOR FOUR FUCKING YEARS WHAT THE FUCK
im so angry i could break my whole laptop. im fucking stuck, this is fucking it.
i heard back from this apprenticeship opportunity with a museum as a preparator. i didn't make it to the next stage. i honestly feel like i will forever be stuck in my current position. each time i apply to a position that's outside of what i currently do, i get no traction. i hate my job, i hate where i am right now. i hate what i do but it feels like nothing i do to get out of this career works.
making a career change feels like an impossible goal to achieve and i know im probably being super dramatic about this but it genuinely feels like i will never be able to switch into the career i want. im going to be fucking stuck being a fucking grant writer for the rest of my fucking 20s at minimum. my whole 20s, a fucking grant writer, something i picked up because i figured why not. a job that i figured i'd do because it's something i would have to know how to do since i want to work in either a library or a museum. it was supposed to be a stepping stone. i wasn't supposed to be doing this FOR FOUR FUCKING YEARS WHAT THE FUCK
im so angry i could break my whole laptop. im fucking stuck, this is fucking it.
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Date: 2019-04-20 08:12 am (UTC)